December 15, 2020 • bachelor insider
Riley Explains Why He 'Needed Closure' from Tayshia After Emotional 'Bachelorette' Exit
After Riley Christian returned home to New York City following his breakup with Tayshia Adams on this season of “The Bachelorette,” he couldn’t stop asking himself one question: Was I wrong to open up?
As fans will recall, the handsome attorney told Tayshia about his complicated family dynamic during an intimate conversation. It wasn’t long before our reigning Bachelorette let Riley go, which ultimately led him to believe that his vulnerability might have been a turnoff.
“That night when I saw Tayshia and she was letting me go, that was the first time I had seen her since I had talked to her about my family and stuff like that,” Riley told Rachel Lindsay and Becca Kufrin on the latest episode of “Bachelor Happy Hour.”
“My biggest fear about opening up to people — and I said it on the show — is that I don’t want people to think any less of me after I tell them,” he continued. “And, so, when I spoke to Tayshia and she was letting me go directly after that, I was like, ‘Oh my goodness, now she thinks a whole lot less of me. I must have been too emotional.’”
Riley went on to say that he was particularly hurt because he “really wanted to stay.” He elaborated, “I felt like I was making a connection with her and I had such strong feelings.”
To heal his heartbreak, Riley told Rachel and Becca that it was imperative to have closure with Tayshia — which, fortunately for him, came during the “Men Tell All” taping, which aired last night.
During the special, Riley asked Tayshia if his emotional revelations about his upbringing caused her to send him packing before Hometown Dates. That’s when Tayshia assured Riley that their last conversation in no way impacted her decision. In fact, she encouraged him to continue sharing more of himself — especially in future romantic relationships.
“I needed that closure, 100 percent,” said Riley. “I was back in my apartment in New York and it was really on my mind. I don’t want to say I was going crazy, but it was really just bugging me. And I was like, ‘Man, I don’t seem to be able to get this right.’”
He continued, “I’ve been in relationships and they’re not panning out, so what is it that I’m doing wrong? And I was thinking maybe if I didn’t tell her, maybe she would’ve thought something else of me and maybe I would have made it to Hometowns. When we got to the ‘Men Tell All,’ that was one of the things that I wanted to talk to her about… When she told me, ‘No, that’s not the case at all,’ that she appreciated me sharing it, I was like, ‘OK, that’s great.’ So I did do something right. We just didn’t work out, and that’s fine.”
Watch part of Riley's interview in the videos below — and don’t forget to subscribe to “Bachelor Happy Hour” on Apple Podcasts.