Keeping it real.

Rachel Lindsay and Bryan Abasolo famously found love and got engaged on Season 13 of “The Bachelorette.”

The two got married in 2019 and shocked fans last year when they announced their divorce after over four years of marriage. 

Now, Rachel is opening up about her marriage for one of the first times on her podcast “Higher Learning.”

She shared a clip from the podcast on her Instagram page and wrote, “I don’t talk much about what went down in my marriage but this past weekend I went to my first wedding since my divorce. And I had some realizations and honest conversations with myself. As women, we have some added pressures that maybe we need to be more honest with ourselves about.”

Rachel shared that the wedding vows moved her to tears and that she didn’t “remember being that joyous” on her wedding day to Bryan. 

Rachel’s co-host Van Lathan didn’t hold back and asked her what percentage of her marriage to Bryan felt like a business decision. 

Rachel replied, “I won’t do that. I will say, towards the end when I felt like I was keeping up appearances, sure. But in the beginning, absolutely not. It was love, but by the end I would say half. Towards the end, it felt like I was putting on a front to keep up appearance, reputation, and stuff like that. That felt like business, but I didn’t get married for business, no.”

The former Bachelorette went on, explaining, “Remember, we dated/had two years living together between the engagement and our wedding. But I will say, there was still pressure because of how we met and even more pressure that I put on myself as a woman who is in her 30s and had put career first. I just felt like I was behind on certain things.”

Rachel shared that she felt a lot of pressure from herself and society that she “should be married” by her age at the time. 

The author said, “I feel like a lot of women who are similarly situated who maybe were taught to put career first and they are successful in every area of their life and then they look up and think that they thought they’d be married by now or like their biological clock is ticking.”

Rachel added, “You feel like this relationship is the last relationship and if you don’t make this work, then it’s going to be hard for you to find somebody else. I absolutely felt like that. I have a lot of single friends and the more I talk to women, they feel that way too. There was a bit of desperation in it too.”