In the October 2 entry of her “Bustle” diary, Hannah expressed frustration at learning the paso doble, which she performed and aced on October 7’s episode of “DWTS.” She wrote, “I was feeling a little bit out of sorts; I was having a really sad day. For whatever reason I wanted to break down and cry. I had a lot of anxiety.” She said she was “not trying to take it personally” when her partner Alan Bersten reminded her to use more hips, but she felt “really sensitive” that day.
She wrote, “It's not really something that I think Alan deals with and understands, and I don't think I would understand it if I didn't struggle with depression and anxiety.”
The 25-year-old continued, “I've been very open about my mental health — honestly, it's a taboo thing that nobody talks about. I have to think that even though I sometimes get pissed off and mad, there has to be a reason why I've been put in this spotlight right now. My gift, and sometimes curse, is that I'm so open about my life.”
As if struggling with depression and anxiety isn’t difficult enough, dealing with television production doesn’t exactly ease the pain. “I have producers on all these shows. I know they’re doing their job, they’re trying to tell my story, but I sometimes feel like they’re trying to tell a story to make my life into a story that they want,” she expressed.
Hannah remained adamant in her article that she wants to ensure her story is told her way. “I hate being fed things to say,” she admitted. “There’s something to me that feels slimy to see my name and thoughts being given to me as sound bites. Even if they’re essentially true, I just feel like it should come from the heart. The past year has made me sensitive to my emotions being exploited and used to tell a story. I’m scared they’ll be used in a manufactured way.”
Hannah’s openness about her depression and anxiety aligns with a message Blake Horstmann shared on October 10, which is World Mental Health Day. Blake posted a photo of himself on Instagram and captioned it, “‘Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the light.’ - Albus Dumbledore. Today is World Mental Health Day, this is a reminder to be that light another may need in their time of dark #worldmentalhealthday #beagoodperson #bekind”