Becca and Rachel wanted to understand Peter’s reasons for asking Hannah Ann to marry him if he still had feelings for Madison. Becca spoke about how she empathized with Hannah Ann and asked, "When was the moment when everything clicked and you said, 'This wasn’t going to work out and I have to end things with my fiancée'?"
Peter explained that before he proposed, he went into his room by himself to gather his thoughts while production set up to film.
He said, "I closed the door and sat down, because I was struggling with what happened with Madison and seeing if I could actually do this. The heartbreak that I was feeling — could I actually pull myself together? Is this something I feel like I should truly be doing?"
Peter continued, "I remember sitting there thinking this was my last chance to go a different direction. I sat there for 20 minutes in my head, really like, 'What do I do? What do I do?' just so confused."
He explained he is "obviously not proud of it," but admitted that he started asking himself questions about their relationship "before I even proposed."
"Looking back on it now, that should've been a clear sign to me," he expressed. "I did know that I loved Hannah Ann. I did know that I felt heartbreak in the past and I could get over it — I would get over it. Did I want to possibly let this temporary pain that I didn’t have time to process like a normal relationship and grieve it? Do I want to let this prevent me from getting something so beautiful down the road for the rest of my life?"
He continued, "I made the decision to go forward and convince myself that I was ready to propose to Hannah Ann. I’m not proud of that, but that’s the truth. I kept holding onto the love that I had for her and the potential."
Peter says he is "such a big fan of Hannah Ann" and "always will be." He shared, "We’ve always had a great time together. I just think that slowly but surely, I started noticing maybe we weren’t as compatible as I thought we were. I say that in regards to the two of us challenging each other in a relationship. I didn’t necessarily feel it as much as I thought I would. A bit of it, too, was unresolved feelings for Madison."
The pilot also admitted that he felt "self-imposed pressure" to propose to Hannah Ann. He said, "At the end, I just saw all the potential in the world for an amazing relationship. I had never, ever felt the love from anyone else that Hannah Ann had shown me. That was one of the biggest things I was looking for coming into this process."