“All I have to say is that these ‘Bachelorette’ episodes have me feeling some type of way,” she told co-hosts Natasha Parker and Joe Amabile. “It’s very emotional watching these things back and reliving those feelings.”

Tayshia added with a laugh, “I may have taken one too many shots or may have drank too much wine.”

The Orange County, California, native said that she typically watches “The Bachelorette” with a small group of her closest friends. “They don’t ever ask me questions. They just want to know I’m happy and then they’re just there for me,” she said. “It’s kind of like my safe zone.”

That support was crucial as Tayshia took in the second half of this week’s two-part installment, explaining that it was particularly tough reliving her breakup with Ben Smith following their Hometown Date.

“I remember those feelings at that time and I was just sitting on that bench [thinking], ‘Show me something. Do you care at all about me? Is this meaningful towards you? Is this how you treat every girl?’” she said. “I just needed a little sense of validation and I feel like I didn’t have any of that.”

As Bachelor Nation will recall, Ben hardly said a word to Tayshia during his departure — and failed to tell the Season 16 lead that he was indeed falling in love with her, an important piece of information he had recently divulged to a family friend.

“I’m not saying, ‘Oh my God, pour your heart out to me and tell me you love me in order for you to stay here.’ I’m just saying, ‘Give me something,’” Tayshia continued. “It was hard.”

Tayshia went on to say that Ben’s lack of emotion caused her to mentally detach herself from the situation.

“As you could tell, I had no emotion — which is kind of weird because you’ve seen me cry at this point now,” she said. “But, usually, when I start feeling like I have to get defensive [or protect] myself, I can completely shut down. And it’s just more of, like, fight or flight mode. I’m going to protect myself and not let myself feel any more things because I don’t want to get hurt. That’s why you kind of see me shut off.”

See what else Tayshia had to say in the video below — and don’t forget to subscribe to “Click Bait with Bachelor Nation” on Apple Podcasts.