In our thoughts.

Bachelor Nation first met Sarah Herron on Season 17 of “The Bachelor,” and she returned to our screens for Seasons 1 and 3 of “Bachelor in Paradise.”

In September, after many highs and lows of her IVF journey, Sarah revealed that she and her fiancé Dylan Brown were expecting a baby boy.

Then last month, Sarah took to Instagram to share the tragic news that their baby boy passed away shortly after he was born prematurely at 24 weeks.

Now, Sarah is taking to Instagram to open up about the past month and the grief she and Dylan have experienced.

Alongside a photo of her kissing her baby boy’s face, Sarah wrote, “It’s been a month since Oliver was born. This is him, this is his sweet little face. Perfect and covered in bright blonde peach fuzz. All 2lbs of him. I’m not sure how to summarize the last month, or how we’ve managed to survive — it’s required a certain type of wintering that only a grieving mother knows. But somehow, we’re here.”

Sarah continued on, sharing more about her experience moving through grief, saying, “What I hate, is that as more time separates us from the night we met Oliver, sometimes I can’t distinguish if the last month has been a nightmare or if my pregnancy was all a dream. And as each new day brings increments of space and healing… I am gutted that we are moving back in a direction of life that physically looks like the one we lived before Oliver. My body is healing, yet I remain in maternity jeans — a paradox of relief and grief at the same time.”

The Bachelor Nation star opened up about how the season beginning to change and the snow starting to melt brings on feelings of sadness, as it’s a reminder that life carries on despite her grief still keeping her in January.

Amid all the sadness, Sarah shared that she has been surprised to find some moments of silver lining and joy throughout this very difficult time.

She wrote, “What I love is that joy ~has~ come back sooner than I gave it credit for. I didn’t believe people when they told me it would. And we’ve been laughing — a lot actually. We’ve started cooking again, and going for walks. And [my dog] Rio, sweet Rio… he has been my lifeline. He is my witness.”

Sarah concluded her post with a message to her son and how she feels him with her despite him not being physically here.

She wrote, “I feel his spirit all around us, people all around the WORLD feel his spirit. And though his body isn’t here, I know this isn’t the end of Oliver Brown. Happy one month heavenly birthday, baby boy. We love you and miss you forever.”