Jade Roper Gets Real About the 'Dark Depression' She Experienced After Giving Birth to Son Brooks
Sharing more of her story, Jade Roper is opening up about her battle with depression after giving birth to son Brooks in July 2019.
The Bachelor Nation star’s latest revelations came via Instagram in response to a social media user accusing her of “complaining about motherhood” after she and husband Tanner Tolbert welcomed their youngest child, son Reed, in November 2020.
“Some days I really struggle with what content to share on here,” wrote Jade, who also shares daughter Emerson, 3, with Tanner. “Someone messaged me yesterday saying that they were going to unfollow me because of all my complaining about motherhood since Reed was born, and that I need to be the person I was when it was just Emmy and Brooks.”
She continued, “Fact is, I was fighting a dark depression for the first 6 months after Brooks was born and no one would have known it. And fact is, I’m not that perceived person they spoke of anymore.”
Jade went on to note that a new “version of ourselves” emerges every time a woman gives birth.
“I’m fumbling through, learning as I go and leaning in as I get to know my baby and the new versions of my children and husband as they evolve and adapt and grow as well,” she wrote. “I guess I share the imperfect moments in hopes of reaching across a social platform and sparking a human connection.”
Jade also revealed why she is transparent with her followers about both the good and bad that comes with being a mother.
“[I speak to] anyone out there hanging on by a thread, needing to know they are loved and not failing, and, honestly for myself when I’m needing to hear a kind voice speak my truths to me,” she explained. “To remind me on the days where I can’t find the light, that it’s still there. I want people to know you can carry both joy and grief together.”
She elaborated, “We can feel madly in love with our children, but also like we are carrying broken pieces of ourselves around.”
Earlier this month, Jade detailed her journey healing from postpartum depression during an emotional discussion with Tanner on her “Mommies Tell All” podcast. As the “Bachelor” alum has previously explained, the unexpectedly early arrival of her second child came so suddenly that she didn’t have time to get to the hospital and instead welcomed him on the floor of her bedroom closet.
“My body was in continuous stress, pain, and contracting. So, I thought something was wrong. I felt like I was going to die, or the baby was going to die,” she recalled of delivering Brooks. “And I feel like those feelings catapulted me into postpartum depression [and] post-traumatic stress disorder. I just had a lot of feelings from that trauma. It just spun me. And I feel like I spun for a long time.”
Later, Jade thanked fans for their outpouring of support. “Thank you for sharing with me your PPD experiences. It’s so hard, and I felt much shame for so long,” she wrote in part on her Instagram Story at the time. “I still do a lot as I’m still unpacking and healing. You will get through this, even though some days it feels like you won’t.”
See her entire Instagram post below.
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