Jade Roper recently shared more about her experience with postpartum depression on her “Mommies Tell All” podcast. Though fellow Bachelor Nation star Carly Waddell typically co-hosts the show, Jade’s husband, Tanner Tolbert, appeared in her place on Wednesday’s episode.

The topic came up while the couple — who met on “Bachelor in Paradise” Season 2 and have been married since 2016 — spoke about adapting to their new life as parents of three following the birth of their son Reed in November. (Jade and Tanner also share daughter Emerson, 3, and son Brooks, 18 months.)

“Getting pregnant with Reed was the best thing that ever happened to me because I feel like my hormones were still so out of whack that getting pregnant almost rebalanced my hormones,” Jade said.

She then recalled the difficulties — both physical and mental — that she went through during and after Brooks’ birth in 2019. As Jade has previously explained, the unexpectedly early arrival of her second child came so suddenly that she didn’t have time to get to the hospital and instead welcomed him on the floor of her bedroom closet.

“For me, it was in that moment, when everything was going crazy, the thoughts in my head were, ‘I’m dying.’ Like, ‘Something’s wrong.’ Because I went straight into transition and the pain is so unreal and I just couldn’t stop the contractions,” she said. “They were on top of each other. There was no break, so I couldn’t relax. I couldn’t even have a moment to be like, ‘Let’s collect our thoughts. This is the next step.’”

Jade continued, “My body was in continuous stress, pain, and contracting. So, I thought something was wrong. I felt like I was going to die, or the baby was going to die. And I feel like those feelings catapulted me into postpartum depression [and] post-traumatic stress disorder. I just had a lot of feelings from that trauma. It just spun me. And I feel like I spun for a long time.”

Elsewhere, Jade revealed that she made a concerted effort to avoid the problems she faced during her second delivery while carrying Reed. “It’s so interesting how each postpartum experience is so different,” she said, adding that she is also laser focused on her nutrition and currently taking herbal supplements. “I didn’t want to have a hard time again this time. That’s why I sought out my postpartum doula and I’ve done more research on things.”

On Thursday, Jade took to her Instagram Stories to thank fans for the outpouring of support she has received in response to her podcast episode with Tanner.

“Thank you for sharing with me your PPD experiences. It’s so hard, and I felt much shame for so long,” she wrote. “I still do a lot as I’m still unpacking and healing. You will get through this, even though some days it feels like you won’t.”